Putting My Future Fully in His hands
The end of December 2010 was probably the craziest time of my life. After getting home from Bible school I told God to do whatever He needed so that I could fully live for Him. I found out that is a very dangerous prayer. Through circumstances I was brought to a place where my whole future (that I had planned) was gone. I was left in a broken state and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t have anywhere to turn but Him. So that’s what I did. I vividly remember curling up into a ball and just crying out for God to take the pain away. It wasn’t a physical pain but it sure felt like it.
The next few weeks went by slowly and I didn’t feel like I was making progress in life. But I just kept my focus on God and eventually I began to get grips with everything. Ha, ha, as cheesy as it sounds I feel like I was a caterpillar that was transforming into a butterfly. I began to discover who I was and just how awesome God is! I learned so much in this time. I began to realize that Church and the Bible isn’t about trying to follow rules, it’s about a relationship with God. It’s about love. The greatest command is not to read your Bible or pray, it’s to love God. Everything else follows and the freedom is so beautiful! Did you get that? The thing we need to do FIRST is love God.
After finally dying to myself and laying down my pride, the past few months I’ve been getting to know God and falling in love a bit more each day. There is a great group of young Christians who’ve all come to the same place and it’s such a great community!!! It’s cool cuz we’ve all come to this place through different circumstances but we all get to chill together and just live life for God
What I’ve been learning is that if we really want all the great promises in the Bible then God requires everything. It’s not a half-hearted commitment. It’s not always easy but it’s so worth it. That’s where I’m at now, working at turning things over to God and putting my future fully in His hands
“If you want to be my disciple, you must hate everyone else by comparison—your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple.” Luke 14:26