Crying out to God
Have you ever went to pray but all you could do is cry? Have you ever opened the Word of God but the only book appealed to you was the Psalms because the cry of the psalmist heart is all that you could relate to? Have you ever cried out to God so deeply that you could not say a word? That all you could do is open your hands in surrender? Have you ever tried to hold your tears back until you reach home, go to your room, turned the music up so you could cry all you needed? Have you ever opened your eyes to read your Bible but couldn’t see it clearly because tears were filling your eyes?
I am talking about those moments where faith in your Heavenly Father’s wisdom, love, and goodness is the only thing that is sustaining your emotional and spiritual being. Not blessings, not joy, not hope, not peace, not guidance, not comfort, not love, nor even His presence—just pure faith. Do I sound too extreme here? I think Job would have agreed with me. When all else is stripped away our faith appears, and shows its real worth. Even in testing our God is wise and just, because His purpose is to build up our faith not destroy it–He desires our best because we are His children.
I don’t know what else to say at this moment except that God is a good God, and He is just. Sometimes even when we obey Him it seems that we failed—and feel He failed us–but we can only see so much in comparison to His wisdom.
The only thing I can add are Jesus’ words when He was in anguish,
“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” ~ Luke 22:42
Find comfort in the fact that your Father in heaven knows everything, He knows your future and your pass, take hold of His promise to never leave you or forsake you.
” Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” ~ Hebrews 13:5
Be assured that God hears the groaning of your heart and the Comforter (Holy Spirit) intercedes on your behalf before the Father.
“Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.” ~ Romans 8:26-27
God’s purpose is to make His children like His son, and He will succeed. The spirit intercedes for us and guides us as we pray, and the circumstances of life work for our good, no matter how painful they may seem. ~ Warren W, Wiersbe