silent grief

Silent Grief

The shocking death by suicide of comedic actor Robin William has catalyzed some thoughts I am still musing about, the unexpressed grief that some people go through. We all need to be more sensitive, discerning even, but even then we would miss some still. Can you wrap your brain around the level of grief Williams was experiencing that would prompt him to take his own life? Imagine the trauma of losing a pregnancy or several pregnancies through miscarriage when none of your friends even know that you are or were ever pregnant. Compound this, in a Church you are a single woman but become pregnant after ‘tiefing a likkle piece’ (=engaging in premarital sex) and suffer a similar fate. Who could you dare ask for prayer support let alone empathy? Silent grief. Then consider having been raped or seduced by someone whom you trust and respect and whose reputation would…    read more 

A Conversation With God

A Conversation With God

October 17, 2012 |

I came to a season in life where nothing made sense to me anymore. There came a time in my life when God was calling me deeper. The place I was in at that time of life could no longer contain my destiny. I had to go deeper, deeper into God so that I could grow enough to embrace my new destiny. New wine cannot be placed in old wineskins. The old wineskins may burst. For the first time in my life, through heartache and pain, I had to go deeper! This is how this book came into existence. This is my pursuit of conversations with God. I had come to a point in life where I wanted to know his thoughts. Price $12.99

Persecuted for His Name Part 1

Persecuted for His Name Part 1

March 27, 2012 |

For years I wondered, “How does a Christian get persecuted in North America in comparison to other parts of the world like in communist countries or Muslim countries?” When I look at this story of king David dancing I see a godly man persecuted because of his love for God. Persecution does not always express itself through physical pain or death. I will tell you my story: I had a best friend for about 5 years–a Middle Eastern Christian lady—whom I loved dearly. She was, after God, the dearest thing to me (she was definitely more precious to me than my life), and I loved her purely, unconditionally, and sacrificially. I brought her to Christ and she started going to church, and I have no doubt in my mind that her faith is genuine. A couple of years later I fell in love with her. At the time I was…    read more 

A Broken Vessel Restored

September 9, 2011 |

I am sharing this because it is a wonderful and heartfelt dream that I have been seeking the Lord about for the past several years. It is answered prayer and one that will come to pass in Gods perfect timing. I must wait, wait for it, wait for the Lord Jesus concerning such. You may find yourself depicted in this dream. I pray the Lord touch you through and through and minister even unto you as He has to me. I share this because it brings truth of what the Lord is going to do in these last days, not just with me but to all those who are of His True Body. I’m going to share things of myself that I don’t often speak of but pray about privately. Of late my body has been racked with pain coming from different places, mostly the left side of my body….    read more 

God Shouts in Our Pain

July 29, 2011 |

I think all of us have two sides to our personalities: sometimes we are out going and sometimes we like to be alone; sometimes we like classical music and other times we just want to listen to electric guitar; sometimes we like change and sometimes we don’t. Generally speaking I love routine, I don’t like change; however, in my relationship with God I like change for many reasons: 1) The word ‘relationship’ is an active and dynamic word to me. For example, we cannot have a meaningful conversation with someone—and know that person personally–if we keep repeating the same dialogue to them every day. 2) God’s goal for our lives, and it should be our goal too, is to be conformed to the likeness of His Son, Jesus Christ. And we all know He is perfect and so if we keep growing spiritually every day for the rest of our…    read more 

Arise: No Shame in Scars – Part 2

June 3, 2011 |

This is a continuation of the testimony of Emma Nation. We learned in the first part of her story, the struggles leading up to abuse and attempted suicide. God showed Emma that He loved her, by sending help just at the right time to pull her from the clutches of the devil, God had better plans for her. The image depicts the surgery that the Lord performed in bringing her out of bondage. Testimony Jesus saved my life in more ways than one. But the pain in my heart was very real and very alive. By that point it had already taken over me and cut deep holes in my spirit. I had already learned to use food in so many ways other than what it was intended for. Food was my connection to my mother as many happy memories with her from early childhood centered around food. Food was…    read more 

Prophetic Words about Messiah 700 Years Before Christ

April 21, 2011 |

“Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed? He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem. Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to…    read more 

Breaking Free from The Rules of Inadequacy

Today I have a testimony to share with you from my Flickr friend Andrew, he has a great testimony and it’s awesome to see the passion in his life. He has done some missions work and you can just tell that it has impacted him in big ways! Testimony I grew up in a very strong Christian family. We would always go to church and I was able to see Godly examples of life from either my family or the people at my church. But even so, I remember feeling from a very young age that I just didn’t think that I fit in very well. I wasn’t sure what it was at the time, but looking back now I know that it was a feeling of inadequacy, like I wasn’t living up to what was expected of me. I have two older brothers, both of which I thought always…    read more 

Called to be Honorable Children of the King

January 31, 2011 |

Never forget who you are or what you’re called to. We are saved to proclaim the excellencies of Him who called us out of darkness into His marvelous light. Think on this! Its stunning and terrifying! We are lights in a dark world. We are going to be offensive; seen as evildoers. Our actions may look awkward and silly, yet we are not called to popularity or to a better life here on earth. Indeed, we are called to suffer and we must fulfill our calling, though it brings pain from people, it reaps rewards from the Almighty, all knowing, awesome God. Live not as the world does, following their way of life and passions of the flesh, but rather living as honorable children of the King, ransomed and forgiven from all your sins, living as a sacrifice to show to the world how glorious God is. But you are…    read more 

A Call to Anguish by David Wilkerson

October 7, 2010 |

David Wilkerson’s soul-stirring sermon on the necessity of anguish – to bear God’s heart, passion, and burden within our lives. David Wilkerson, gives a powerful sermon that speaks to the Church in a mighty way about the need for anguish in our hearts for the world, he speaks about how God uses anguish to bring us closer to himself. So what is anguish, it is not a word used often today, it is extreme pain, distress, or anxiety over a given situation, example “He experienced the anguish of divorce after 10 years of marriage.” Watch this powerful video and see what the Church is missing, when it only focuses on ministry and programs, without anguish in our hearts. Video by [Ellerslie ] -  Image by kelsey_lovefusionphoto.