A Dreamer – Escaping The Brokenness of Life

October 4, 2010 - By 

Where does one begin to truly share about one’s self? First and foremost, thank you Lord for opening a door here to share forth to others of Your goodness, Your Mercy, Your grace, thank You Lord. I would like to start out by sharing about Jesus and give ALL  to Him, my Friend, my Strong Tower, My Refuge, My Lord and my Savior, My Healer and Provider,  a true Praise, a true honor and heartfelt glory.

He is not only a wonderful Savior and Lord,  He (Jesus) is Lord over me and in my life. He gave me life and I have come to realize, I am not my own, as it is written in the Word. I have been blood bought and paid for [ 1 Corinthians 6:20 ].  I desire to please Him, though I fail at times, this is my true hearts desire to live for Him daily and to seek His will for my life. It is a walk, a narrow walk, but it is the only way. We are to strive to enter in, to run the race that He places and set before us, to bring Him the honor, glory and praise truly due to His precious name.

Back in the early 90’s, I will never forget, I was going through a divorce which felt like death. I was not born again, I wasn’t raised up in a church, I only remember eating wafer cookies , sipping water and coloring little Jesus pictures with crayons. That’s the jest of what I remember about church. I remember, as a very little girl, praying to Jesus, even while I was growing up.

Divorce was painful and I drank to escape the intense pain, hurt and brokenness that the Lord was causing in me, to turn to Him. I would sit and watch people drinking themselves to death, empty and void of life. Their life was in that bottle and the Lord was showing me, I too had no life, just plain empty and void. What a horrible thing to rely on for escape. Some can relate, while others had or have other uses of the lies of escape methods. The plain hard truth is they are all lies, deceit and masks of the enemy (Lucifer). I was in darkness and I would go home and cry out to Jesus.

One day I felt led to pick up the Bible. I tell ya, it was like a TRUE love story to me. I never put it down, I began to thirst and hunger to read every day. Three days before I became born again, I was given a dream. In the dream, I was pregnant, but knew that I couldn’t have any more children. I knew I had my son and daughter. I knew I was about to give birth.

As I shared with my daughter, she said,

“Mom, the baby is symbol of a new birth.”

Out of the mouth of babes (Matthew 21:16). My daughter was right! Three days later, I was born again and filled with the Spirit of the living God. Set free and healed, I cried and cried. I felt the heavy burden completely lifted off of me. I felt clean and I felt like a little child and I began to see and view things in a whole new Light.

The True Light of Jesus is now in me, for the Light has now entered in and the darkness is gone, blessed be to God indeed! Thirteen years later, the Lord placed a Spirit filled man into my life. We have now been married three and half years. The Lord gave me a vision of him. I saw my heart across from His. I saw strands of yarn being weaved and woven together to be as one. The Holy Spirit spoke forth.

“I am intricately weaving your hearts together for you shall be one with Me. For a three fold cord is not easily broken. For what I have joined together can no man break. “

Seven days after we met, we married 🙂 ..With that said, if you are single and born again, wait I say, wait upon the Lord and do not be unequally yoked with another.


Thought For The Day

Are you relying on the lies, deceit and masks of the enemy? What are  the circumstances in your  life that is holding you back from giving your life to Christ? What are those  things that are holding you captive? Give your life to Jesus and He will set you free.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Mathew 11:28-30




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  • I sat here riveted as I read your testimony. I’ve known many like you whom the Lord had picked up, polished and transformed so much. Just goes to show that the Carpenter uses broken tools..and makes them into marvelous instruments…and 7 days…cool…marriage happens after He created man n woman!:-)

    • Hi Allen, AMEN!!!!! You reminded me of this verse….

      For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect (grow up or mature up in Christ) it until the day of Christ Jesus.
      Phillippians1:6

      The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. Psalms 138:8

      and…

      Know that the LORD is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
      Psalm 100:3
      much love in Jesus~

  • Its so good to see you on here! I have been massively encouraged by your work on flickr and its so good to see your testimony!

    • Tyler, you have blessed me by what you share and I want to say thank you for sharing as you do! “You who make mention of the Lord, Do not stop”
      🙂

      much love in Jesus~

  • What a wonderful story! There are so many similarities between us and your story gives me much hope. I also went through a painful divorce, but our Lord has an amazing way of taking the bad things in your life and making it work out for your good. I am so much more closer to Him than I ever was. God also uses dreams to communicate with me. It’s very powerful how God reaches us. He gave me a dream at the beginning of last year which made no sense at the time to me at all but I knew it was something significant. In January of this year, something happened and He reminded me instantly of my dream – it was a eye opener for me of how God already has His plans laid out for us – we just have to submit control to Him and step out in the direction He wants to lead us.

    I am looking forward to more of your testimonies. Thanks for blessing my day.

    • Hi Kaleb,
      Praise God for what the Lord has done in your life!!! Dreams and visions. Yes the Lord sure does use them. To seek His face. I must be still before Him, to hear from Him. In quietness and I must come away from the world and all the business of it, to be still.

      Yes Kaleb, your right, allowing the Lord to lead us, instead of self is truly important.
      He truly knows best:)
      ~ A Heartfelt, thank you all for blessing me~
      much love in Jesus~

  • Great to see more writers being added to the site! Your story gave me goose bumps at certain points, you are truly blessed with a tremendous gift of dreams. I praise the Lord for saving you and having you share your story with us, so Powerful!

  • This has blessed my heart so much, happy I opened my RSS Reader this morning 🙂 I can feel your genuine love coming through the words that you write. Thanks for being so open and honest, I love that you shared from a point of brokenness at a point where you did not know Christ and having been down in the gutters of life you are helping to pull others out. God Bless!!

    • Hi Jose, I was pondering on your comment.
      I was thinking that if I had not been brought to the lowest point in my life, I dont know if I would have cried out to Jesus. I just simply dont know and I dont want to know:)

      The Lord made Himself ever so real in my life and He has repeatedly. Their is no denying it, Praise GOD!

      When Jesus comes in and redeems us, saves us from the pit. We than become TRUE witnesses of His kindness, mercy, compassion, real grace. Of His love and we are no longer captive but have been made free:)

      Romans 6:4
      We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

      much love in Jesus~

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