A Dreamer – Escaping The Brokenness of Life
Where does one begin to truly share about one’s self? First and foremost, thank you Lord for opening a door here to share forth to others of Your goodness, Your Mercy, Your grace, thank You Lord. I would like to start out by sharing about Jesus and give ALL to Him, my Friend, my Strong Tower, My Refuge, My Lord and my Savior, My Healer and Provider, a true Praise, a true honor and heartfelt glory.
He is not only a wonderful Savior and Lord, He (Jesus) is Lord over me and in my life. He gave me life and I have come to realize, I am not my own, as it is written in the Word. I have been blood bought and paid for [ 1 Corinthians 6:20 ]. I desire to please Him, though I fail at times, this is my true hearts desire to live for Him daily and to seek His will for my life. It is a walk, a narrow walk, but it is the only way. We are to strive to enter in, to run the race that He places and set before us, to bring Him the honor, glory and praise truly due to His precious name.
Back in the early 90’s, I will never forget, I was going through a divorce which felt like death. I was not born again, I wasn’t raised up in a church, I only remember eating wafer cookies , sipping water and coloring little Jesus pictures with crayons. That’s the jest of what I remember about church. I remember, as a very little girl, praying to Jesus, even while I was growing up.
Divorce was painful and I drank to escape the intense pain, hurt and brokenness that the Lord was causing in me, to turn to Him. I would sit and watch people drinking themselves to death, empty and void of life. Their life was in that bottle and the Lord was showing me, I too had no life, just plain empty and void. What a horrible thing to rely on for escape. Some can relate, while others had or have other uses of the lies of escape methods. The plain hard truth is they are all lies, deceit and masks of the enemy (Lucifer). I was in darkness and I would go home and cry out to Jesus.
One day I felt led to pick up the Bible. I tell ya, it was like a TRUE love story to me. I never put it down, I began to thirst and hunger to read every day. Three days before I became born again, I was given a dream. In the dream, I was pregnant, but knew that I couldn’t have any more children. I knew I had my son and daughter. I knew I was about to give birth.
As I shared with my daughter, she said,
“Mom, the baby is symbol of a new birth.”
Out of the mouth of babes (Matthew 21:16). My daughter was right! Three days later, I was born again and filled with the Spirit of the living God. Set free and healed, I cried and cried. I felt the heavy burden completely lifted off of me. I felt clean and I felt like a little child and I began to see and view things in a whole new Light.
The True Light of Jesus is now in me, for the Light has now entered in and the darkness is gone, blessed be to God indeed! Thirteen years later, the Lord placed a Spirit filled man into my life. We have now been married three and half years. The Lord gave me a vision of him. I saw my heart across from His. I saw strands of yarn being weaved and woven together to be as one. The Holy Spirit spoke forth.
“I am intricately weaving your hearts together for you shall be one with Me. For a three fold cord is not easily broken. For what I have joined together can no man break. “
Seven days after we met, we married 🙂 ..With that said, if you are single and born again, wait I say, wait upon the Lord and do not be unequally yoked with another.
Thought For The Day
Are you relying on the lies, deceit and masks of the enemy? What are the circumstances in your life that is holding you back from giving your life to Christ? What are those things that are holding you captive? Give your life to Jesus and He will set you free.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Mathew 11:28-30