Arise: No Shame in Scars – Part 3
The Testimony of Emma Nation reflects the pain and depravity that we face outside of Christ and the ultimate plan that the devil has for all humans which is death! But thank God that He has a better plan for us, a plan for life everlasting! Emma wraps up her testimony, with a revelation on how God is continuing to heal the scars in her life.
My life still holds pain, but I have a faithful comforter and healer! I am still a broken woman, desperately in need of His strength, love, forgiveness and rest every single day, but I am a new creation starting fresh as a pure, lovely, redeemed, chosen, loved child of the Most High King. March 13, 2010 was the day that this verse became the true claim of my life. This was also the day that God changed my name from Emily to Emma as a testimony to my own spirit as well as to others the great work of healing and change God has done in my life. I am truly living as a new creation for His glory and praise! I love sharing my name change; as it opens up a wonderful opportunity to boldly proclaim what the Lord has done for my soul!
In regards to food: Food is no longer my connection with my mom, Jesus has helped me to forgive her and I am enjoying a new relationship as her loved daughter. Food is no longer my trusted companion as I am able to receive and enjoy the love and company of friends and family around me who truly care. Food is no longer the hunger I must fill, because God has satisfied the true hungers of my heart! Food no longer creates a necessary protection and guard against further lust because God is my refuge and fierce protector! Yet, with all of these chains broken, I still find myself overweight. Of course the healing of my heart did not change the status of my physical body. BUT, I am here to say that there is NO SHAME IN SCARS!!
I have an enemy, in fact we all do! There is a spiritual enemy to our souls that is doing anything and everything he can to destroy us and keep us as far as possible away from God. My extra weight is the physical representation of the scars of my enemy’s attacks against my soul. Some scars heal quickly, some slowly, and some never fade completely. My Jesus assured my heart that the pain of this scar will fade! One day my body will reflect the complete healing He has worked in my heart! So out of the conviction of my heart I set out on this journey of tending to my scar, doing what I can to help it heal, not for my own satisfaction, but to FOLLOW, HONOR AND GLORIFY CHRIST.
This has been my journey with my Loving God! The picture God clearly gave me as a representation of this journey is that of a hot air balloon. I have spent the majority of my life as a hot air balloon stuck at the bottom of the ocean; chained down by pain, rejection, and loss; overgrown by fear and self medication. It felt comfortable enough since I had been there for so long, I had made this misery my home. Yet, no matter how much time passed I continued to long for the skies. I would try in my own strength to lift myself up out of the ocean and perhaps for a very brief time I would hover near the surface of the water, but never for long. Until March 13, 2010 when the Healer chose to reach down and break these chains and free me from these bonds. He created me for the skies! In His power alone I am finally living where I was created to be! In the beauty of that moment, the Lover of my Soul spoke to my heart saying My beloved responded and said to me, ‘Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, and come along.’ Song of Solomon 2:10
If you’ve read this far, let me say a few words to you! Whether you have been a Christ followers for years or you are reading this very skeptical or possibly even offended by my story, Christ loves you, too! He knows every part of your heart that is broken and hurting and He knows why! Ask Him if He cares and then wait for His answer! Ask the God of the universe if He is really there and if He really desires a relationship personally with you…and then expect Him to answer! This life is so short and there is an eternity coming! We all have an enemy but Jesus has already gone to battle for us! Let Him be your victor and champion! He loves you so much and is waiting for you to just call out to Him!
For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. 2 Corinthians 4:6-10